Hana Kimura's heartbreaking suicide note to mother: 'I’m sorry. Thank you for giving birth to me.'
Terrace House star and Japanese wrestler Hana Kimura’s death three days ago at the young age of 22 came as a shock to many. Investigations into her cause of death led to the discovery of a container of a chemical agent and several suicide notes in her flat in Koto Ward, Tokyo on Monday (25 May).
According to Japan News, “when ambulance staff arrived at her home, the entrance door was locked and a written notice saying ‘Toxic gas is forming’ was put on the door.” The Metropolitan Police Department of Japan assumed Kimura may have mixed chemical agents to produce a poisonous gas. Police are treating her death as a suicide.
In addition, one of the suicide notes found which is addressed to her mother read, “I’m sorry. Thank you for giving birth to me.”
Kimura’s final post on Instagram, possibly her final words to her beloved cat, said, “I love you, please live a long and joyful life. I’m sorry.”
Her last Instastory read “sayonara” which means goodbye.
Following the announcement of her demise, messages of condolences from her friends in pro wrestling and Netflix’s Terrace House: Tokyo 2019-2020, a Japanese reality television series in which she appeared, surfaced on social media sites.
花、順番が違うぞ！！
花はこれからだったんだぞ
老いた婆より先に行くか？
花、平手打ちしたいぞ！バカタレが。虐めた人種は生涯この子への攻め口を背負って生きなさい。因果応報があるならばさ。
花 泣くに泣けないぞ。
いつか また
プロレスしような。
まってろよ。 pic.twitter.com/UUZHEGpiZZ— 長与 千種 Chigusa Nagayo (@chigusa8888) May 23, 2020
Former female pro wrestler Chigusa Nagayo posted a heartbreaking tweet with a photo of the two of them, saying, “Let’s wrestle again sometime. Wait for me.”
最後の試合になっちゃった
もう一回やろうって言ったのに pic.twitter.com/znG0jJxsbH— 岩谷麻優 MayuIwatani (@MayuIwatani) May 23, 2020
Kimura’s rival Mayu Iwatani also tweeted photos of the Stardom Cinderella Tournament held earlier this year, exasperated that it became their last fight together. “We said to do it again,” recalled Iwatani.
Fellow Terrace House cast member Peppe uploaded a gallery of their photos with the message, “It hurts that I cannot see you again.”
Vivi from Terrace House also cried, “Please, somebody just tell me that I’m watching 13 Reasons Why, that this is just a bad dream.… I’m so sorry I couldn’t help you”
Reports suggest that what made Kimura take that fateful step may have been hate comments regarding her remarks and behaviour in Terrace House. Some of these comments include, “Everybody will be happy if you are gone quickly” and “Never appear on TV again”. Kimura was also said to have told her mother previously that she felt crushed due to postings on social media sites.
Kimura’s death has sparked an outcry against cyberbullying, where Japanese singer Kyary Pamyu Pamyu also tweeted, “People say we should just ignore slanderous comments, but it’s difficult. An entertainer is also a human being. Please don’t forget this.”
Japan’s leading politicians have since emphasised the need to deal with cyberbullying, and will be establishing a set of rules to prevent the occurrence of such incidents.
South Korea recently also experienced cases of pop stars Goo Hara and Sullie taking their lives allegedly because of cyberbullying and mental health issues, a result of what observers have said are the public pressures of celebrity .
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SINGAPORE
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