Sharon Cuneta suffering from mid-life crisis

Sharon Cuneta is mourning the passing of her mom, Elaine Cuneta last Wednesday, November 5/NPPA Images

Sharon Cuneta is in a low point in her personal and professional life.

“I have nothing to lose by telling you that I have made mistakes that have affected all that I have worked for, bled for over the past thirty-six years,” Sharon said in a long open letter in her Facebook account.

Wrong decisions

Sharon revealed that she has made wrong decisions because she wants to offer more to her supporters.

“I feel that I have let you down. I let myself go, I allowed myself to get fat and stay fat. I became complacent... and I never lost faith in God, and in you, but I ignored the fact that I had lost faith in myself. It was I who let myself become affected by the fact that I had turned forty, not my public.”

Sharon realized her status as “everyone’s sweetheart” has changed. She admitted failing to take care of her career, including her weight, as she focused on her family.

“I knew then but chose to deny to myself that it wasn't that I had turned forty... It was that I had allowed myself to become fat. I feel that I had lost that "hunger" to be on top of my industry, maybe because I finally had a peaceful home and a loving family and focused on my children so much. And so I suffered the consequences of failing to treasure and take care of all that God had blessed me with with regard to my career. It IS my fault, my friends. I am only human.”

Weight gain

Sharon admitting having gone through mid-life crisis. She felt worse about herself, thinking that she was no longer the kind of person she used to be.

“I was going through a mid-life crisis, the effects of which I could never have foreseen. My reaction to it was awful; I became rebellious because I hated myself for the way I looked and the time I continued to waste by not focusing and working on bettering my own person. And each time I rebelled, often offending other people by being inconsiderate of their time and all else that I used to respect in and about them.”

She also felt that her talents were not maximized because her weight gain limited her showbiz projects (her last movie was in 2009).

“Ignoring that I had gained so much weight and had limited myself to certain movie roles when there was so much more I wanted to do... And forgetting that as I was doing all this, time was passing me by.”

Many bashers

Like other celebrities, Sharon is often the target of many bashers. Sharon admitted her temper makes her fight bashers because she only wants to defend her loved ones. However, she also realized that she could have reacted to the criticisms differently.

“I am not a doormat. And like every other human being, I deserve respect, especially because I know I am not a bad person. My mistake was I should've picked my battles like I always used to. I was shocked and unprepared, and so I was wrong to react the way I often did.”

In the end, Sharon thanked her fans, family and friends for loving and supporting her.

“All I know is that I will live the best life I can, with the same mission statement: to inspire and encourage, to show that in this crazy world, there are still a few of us you can count on to be real. To show that you fall every once in a while, but you get up. You must. It is our obligation to do so. I know it is my obligation to do so. Not just for me, but for all of you.”