Fergie isn’t afraid to open up about her past. In a December 7th interview with the U.K.’s iNews, Fergie talked about her former meth addiction, which she says dictated her life before she found fame with The Black Eyes Peas.
“At my lowest point, I was [suffering from] chemically induced psychosis and dementia,” Fergie revealed. “I was hallucinating on a daily basis. It took a year after getting off that drug for the chemicals in my brain to settle so that I stopped seeing things. I’d just be sitting there, seeing a random bee or bunny.”
In a September interview with the U.K.’s Evening Standard, Fergie noted that she’s always open about what she calls “her dark period.” That time came at the tail end of her involvement in the early 2000s girl group, Wild Orchid.
Fergie said her crystal meth-induced hallucinations were so severe that she was convinced the FBI was following her. She sought help in a local church, and while there, realized she had to help herself before accepting help from anyone else.
“I remember thinking: ‘If I walk outside, and the SWAT team’s out there, I was right all along. But if they’re not out there, then it’s the drugs making me see things and I’m going to end up in an institution. And if it really is the drugs, I don’t want to live my life like this any more, anyway,'” Fergie told iNews.
She continued, “I walked out of the church; obviously there was no SWAT team, it was just me in a parking lot. It was a freeing moment.”
Fergie told iNews that her drug addiction, “was a hell of a lot of fun…until it wasn’t.” She told Oprah in 2012 that a person feels great at the beginning of using a new drug, “and then slowly, your life starts to spiral.”
The realization that she needed help confirmed her strength, faith, and her “hope for something better.”
Soul searching, therapy, and figuring out why she took the drugs in the first place led Fergie to recovery.
If you or a loved one is suffering from drug addiction, you can call the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357). Their services are available 24/7. You are never, ever alone.