Evangeline Lily got candid with fans on social media as she opened up about feeling "alone and unseen".
The former Lost star shared a snap of herself sporting a new blond pixie cut and, when the 40-year-old actress asked fans on Instagram which hair colour they liked better on her, she confessed she decided to switch up her style after coming out of a difficult time last year.
“I had such a rough year last year but I didn’t want to share all of it with you because i didn’t want to be a dark cloud in your world,” she told fans. “All I’ve ever wanted to do was put joy in the world. To add sunshine. I didn’t want you to be having a perfectly good day and then have my post make you sad. But I struggle deeply with feeling that all I ever am is what I feel everyone else wants and needs me to be. I often feel alone and unseen.”
She continued: “Publicly, I hid and made light of my deepest traumas and laughed in the face of my most profound pain. Until, last year, I broke. Suddenly I was forced to face my weakness and my limitations, my trauma and fears. I was left with no choice but to accept that I am limited or…carry on down a road of perfectionist denial that would inevitably kill me.”
While the Ant-Man actress assured her followers she's "coming out of that deep place", she confessed she still feels "disconnected" from her fanbase.
"As I start to breathe the fresh air, as I start to find my new, limited footing, I feel disconnected from you," Evangeline added. "I feel it’s pointless to share the light when you don’t know my darkness. I feel lost and apathetic about this space we share."
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